Monday, October 28, 2019

I can lose 60 lbs and fit in pants 4 sizes smaller than I used to wear :

I can lose 60 lbs and fit in pants 4 sizes smaller than I used to wear
Some days I’m crazy hard on myself and forget how far I’ve come in the last 7 months.
When I set out to make a change, it wasn’t just about losing weight. The “me” I knew a year ago was so mean, in my head. I would tell myself how much of a failure I was daily, how I would never be a good enough mom or wife. I was a major people pleaser, and any criticism I received from others automatically defined who I was in my head. But at some point, enough was enough, and honestly, I had to decide that for myself, that I didn’t want to live that way anymore. I made that choice, and began to consistently make healthy choices for my life. Things like seeking out truth in scripture about who Christ says I am, seeking out a mental health professional and taking my anxiety medication regularly, actually caring what I put in my body instead of just a bunch of processed junk, taking the time to plan out my life the way I wanted it to go instead of letting it control me. 

I began to memory keep and embrace the moments of time with family and friends and take photos to remember those moments. I now make the most of each season, light candles in my house to make it cozy, try to keep a clean sink and bathroom. Those things may sound small, but to me, they are such a big deal. They are signs that I can do the hard stuff. I can have enough clothes to last us a week without digging through wrinkled laundry. I can sit down at the end of the evening with a few candles lit, and read my bible peacefully knowing my house is in order. I can lose 60 lbs and fit in pants 4 sizes smaller than I used to wear. And I know that I am still a work in progress. I still have goals, and I will always be growing. But now, the biggest thing that is different about me from 7 months ago is that I absolutely know I can do it. And you can too. You just have to decide you’ve had enough.

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