I make and share these side by side photos for a lot of reasons, but a big reason is to remind myself of what I look like exactly.
I know that might seem strange to some, I literally see myself everyday when I look in the mirror. But just as I never completely saw myself as that person on the left, I don’t see myself as the person on the right either. Mentally I live in the middle, in that little white line.
Will my brain ever catch up with the changes? I’m not sure. I still reach for the wrong size clothes, second guess flimsy chairs, get nervous about aeroplane seatbelts (pre covid, obv) and push myself up against walls to squeeze past people and objects that I have more than enough room to pass comfortably 🤷♀️
There are days that I feel every one of those kilograms back on my body. There are days that I don’t. What I’ve come to learn is to approach each day with self kindness ❤️
I ended up at 167kg through a lot of self loathing. I hated my body and for years I let it define me. This only fuelled a spiral of self shame and poor choices that took years to pull myself out of.
I know that might seem strange to some, I literally see myself everyday when I look in the mirror. But just as I never completely saw myself as that person on the left, I don’t see myself as the person on the right either. Mentally I live in the middle, in that little white line.
Will my brain ever catch up with the changes? I’m not sure. I still reach for the wrong size clothes, second guess flimsy chairs, get nervous about aeroplane seatbelts (pre covid, obv) and push myself up against walls to squeeze past people and objects that I have more than enough room to pass comfortably 🤷♀️
There are days that I feel every one of those kilograms back on my body. There are days that I don’t. What I’ve come to learn is to approach each day with self kindness ❤️
I ended up at 167kg through a lot of self loathing. I hated my body and for years I let it define me. This only fuelled a spiral of self shame and poor choices that took years to pull myself out of.
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